I had declared 2014 to be the year of Hope. As I reflect on the past year, I can say with complete confidence that I have been blown away by God’s faithfulness to our family. It was so full of Hope. It was so very good.
If I’m being honest, I find myself entering into 2015 with trepidation. You can only stay on top of the mountain for so long before it’s time to start stepping forward and walking back down. I am praying against the lies that whisper this is all too good to be true. The lies that cause fear to rise up in my chest. I’m praying for confidence and trust in God’s goodness.
I haven’t had time to write this post before now since we traveled for the New Year and the flu came at us with a vengeance. But, I need to write it. I need these markers of Faithfulness. I need these stones of remembrance.
I look back to a year and a half ago, when I wrote these words:
“I forget all that God has done. He has performed some pretty amazing, powerful, supernatural miracles on our journey to our daughter. And, I’m overwhelming grateful. In awe of His goodness. Even still, the fear creeps in. The worry, the doubt.
I need to record spiritual markers along the way. To remind myself of His faithfulness. Reminders to look back upon and rest in truth — He is on His throne and will receive the glory from our family’s story.”
And, I wonder how is it that I am in this place again. This place of worry and doubt. After all that has happened. After all of the answered prayers. How could it be?
So, I will record spiritual markers. I will reflect on His goodness. I will trust. I will look forward with Hope and anticipation of the good things to come. For, He is only good.
Join me, as I look back on our family’s Top 10 Moments of 2014:
When I needed it most, I was privileged to begin the new year surrounded by dear friends at the Created for Care retreat. I headed into the weekend weary and worn, yet God met me there. My heart was restored. I was reminded that God always writes the absolute best stories.
Dave traveled to Congo in February to visit our Sylvie-girl. She was once again in Daddy’s arms.
“He went to remind her that we are still here fighting and waiting and praying every moment of every day for her. And, to remind her, that she is worth every ounce of energy expelled calling, emailing, letter writing and begging anyone/everyone we can think of for help; she is worth every tear; she is worth all of this heartache… she is our daughter and we will never give up fighting to get her home.”
Time spent by the ocean to celebrate my brother’s wedding. It was a tear-filled weekend. Joy and sorrow intermixed once again. The joy of a new marriage and the sorrow of our hearts divided across two continents.
When I needed it most, I was gifted with silence to hear from Him. To a place with no cell service or access to internet. Just peace and stillness. A quiet weekend to restore my hope.
God led us to launch Feed Their Tummies and then opened doors for The Bentonville Sessions. It all unfolded so naturally. God led the way and went before us. He made connections, placed people in our path, and beautifully provided for these precious children. It has been an honor and an immense privilege to step into these stories. Our prayers to be a light for Him have been answered in this work. Feeding these little ones is our passion and our joy.
Our world was changed forever with the birth of our baby girl, Charlotte.
In my heart of hearts, I can admit that I was afraid my heart couldn’t hold any more love. I have already been so blessed in this life and my heart is already so full. But, you, precious one, have multiplied the contents of my heart. My love is endless, it seems. You have taken up residence there and I am just in awe that God chose me to be your mommy.
In the place where I wept and prayed and pleaded with the Lord for two years, in that little house by the sea, answered prayers were tangible. We finally walked along the sand as a family of six. The dark night had given way to the joy of the morning.
Christmas with the love of my life and my four little loves. An absolute highlight. So many prayers answered. Pure Christmas Joy.
Jesus, thank you for the good and perfect gifts you have given us. Our lives are an outpouring of praise to you and we boast in you alone for all of this goodness. We welcome 2015 and all that you have in store for us in this coming year. We pray that our lives be poured out for you each day. We ask that you fill our home and our hearts with your abundant love, your unimaginable peace and your unending grace. Amen.