I just shared a post on my photography blog announcing that I would be stepping away from my business. It was such a difficult post to write and I feel so peaceful now that it is done. It was long overdue. Feel free to read it here.
I created Jenny Marrs Photography three years ago thinking that it was the perfect way to turn something I love to do into a business that would allow me the flexibility to work for myself and structure my days around my family. Unfortunately, it became a very time consuming and stressful business that I poured countless evening and weekend hours into. I did truly love to meet the precious families that I photographed and felt honored to document such important moments in their lives. It was a gratifying job and I really did love it.
Over the past several months, however, God has been working on my heart in so many ways. It is amazing to watch Him work in my life and to literally watch things fall into place like pieces of a puzzle. More to come on the various puzzle pieces later…for now, I’ll focus on this first change.
The first stirring that I felt that it was time to step away from this business happened a few months ago while I was sharing my heart with some wonderful ladies during our Wednesday night Bible Study. We were studying Shaunti Feldman’s The Life Ready Woman series. We were discussing how we are meant to spend our time differently during the various seasons of our life.
I kept feeling conflicted about the fact that I was spending my free hours (now that I was working part-time with my corporate job) and weekends working on my photography business because I felt I owed it to others. I knew that wasn’t how I wanted to spend my time but I felt so obligated to do so. This study reminded me that my only obligation is to love and serve the Lord. And after many, many prayers and tears, I knew that God wanted me to serve Him in a different way than I was currently.
I am in the midst of learning what that service looks like and how I can best use my life to glorify Him. It has been a intimate journey walking in step with my God. He has brought so many amazing, inspirational and kind people into my life over these past few months and I am in awe of His goodness and how He provides exactly what (or whom) I need when I need it most.
This particular study was one step in this life changing journey I am on. I am so thankful for it, for the women I shared this time with and for the lessons I learned over the course of the study. I just love the description Shaunti uses on her site, it speaks to me so clearly!
The Life Ready Woman: Thriving in a Do-It-All World, reveals a profound biblical roadmap for how each of us can find the abundant life we are longing for, rather than the stressful, torn, how-do-I-balance-it-all life we often feel like we are trying to keep up with today. Actually being a LifeReady Woman means that you are clear about your life, bold in your faith, and able to find God’s best for you, and the end result will be that you not only survive but thrive in our do-it-all world.
Isn’t that what we all want? To find God’s best for us?
“Therefore, brothers and sisters, we have an obligation – but it is not to the flesh, to live according to it. For if you live according to the flesh, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body, you will live.” Romans 8:12-13.