Welcome to the brand new Marrs’ Family blog! I’m so glad you are here.
Why am I starting a blog?
I can honestly say that this has been a struggle for me. I have read other blogs and felt compelled to start one for our family for some time. I thought it would be a great way to keep a record of our days; days full of joy, chaos and pain-in-the-side laughter. Time passes by so quickly and I don’t want to forget a single moment.
I decided to start now as we embark on an exciting & overwhelming journey as a family. I will share more on that later…sorry to just leave you hanging here. I have to keep you coming back, don’t I?! (And, no, Mom – I’m not pregnant and we’re not moving back to Florida) 🙂
Even with the desire to do this seemingly small and simple thing of writing down words and sharing photos, I have always held back from starting this blog.
I have many excuses: There are so many blogs out there, who would care to read what is happening within our family? What if I am unable to put into words the desires of my heart? What if what I write is judged by others? What if people disagree with my words? Where will I find the time?
The excuses all lead to one place: Fear.
Four letters that are SO powerful. Satan uses fear to hold us back and to make us stand still. Gratefully, Jesus breaks us free of fear so that we can move forward to glorify Him and further His kingdom.
We only have to lay the fear at His feet.
That sounds easy enough.
Sounds easy…but is it?
I have so many fears in my life. Some are technically worries and anxieties but they are all rooted in fear.
- Small things: like spiders (but to be fair, I’m really only afraid of the big ones) and whether or not the boys eat enough each day (yes, I am irrationally obsessed with the nutritional intake of our boys…it started when they were preemies in the NICU striving to gain an ounce and it hasn’t lightened up very much in the past 20 months).
- To big things: like cancer and the safety and health of my family (I have spent many sleepless nights watching my children breathe in their sleep just to be sure they are) and flying (I am literally typing this on a plane while going through turbulence and I am praying while I type …and hoping that just writing these words will distract me enough to stop my palms from sweating and soaking my keyboard).
- To just plain crazy things: like hotels (I have a very real fear that someone will be hiding in my hotel room when I travel alone …there is a related story that is worthy of an entire post at some point…stay tuned for that one later).
- But my greatest fear of all? Not following the path God has set for my life and not using my life to Glorify Him.
This life is not my own. I was carefully made by my loving Father in order to serve Him and to bring His light to the dark places in this world. He reminds me, “The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, Abba, Father.” (Romans 8:15).
I love the Message’s version of that same verse: “This resurrection life you received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It’s adventurously expectant, greeting God with a childlike “What’s next, Papa?”
That’s exactly how I am feeling in this season of my life. Looking to my “Papa” to see what adventure he has in store for little ole’ me next!
So, here I am. Taking a very small step in the direction that my Jesus has asked me to go. This is not earth shattering by any means, I get that. But it is me (once again) laying my fears, my worries, and my anxieties at the feet of my Savior. I am writing the words on my heart for you all to read if you so choose. That’s just plain scary in my book.
I know that I am human and that overcoming fear and stepping out into a scary place is something that I will need to do again and again. Satan knows my “buttons” – he knows which ones to push and fear is a very easy one to start with. I am so grateful for my patient, loving Father who simply holds me in His embrace when I run back to Him time and time again crying out for help from the crippling effects of fear and worry.
With all that said, I want to use this blog as a way to share our little family’s journey with our friends and family. As a way to share how God is working in our lives. As a way to document the seemingly small and mundane happenings of our everyday life, that I know I will someday look back on and realize were the glorious and beautiful moments that make this life so very special.
Thank you for sharing this journey with me!