I arrived back in Orlando around 10:30 last night. The second we walked in the door at my parent’s house, I ran to the boy’s room to see their sweet faces. I had to resist the (very strong) urge to crawl into each of their cribs and snuggle and just soak them in. Instead, I stroked their faces, laid my hand on their hearts and watched them as they slept peacefully. I stood in awe of their perfectness.
I am overjoyed to be back with my precious boys. There really are no words. A whole week apart was too hard.
They were SO adorable this morning when they saw that I was here again.
Ben just looked at me for a minute in a state of shock. As if he was thinking, “You came back!” After a second of processing that I was really here, he reached for me and just hugged me so tight.
Nathan smiled the biggest smile and said, “Mama!” Affirming that it really was me. Then, he crawled into my lap and hugged my neck.
|Snuggling with my lovelies…|
We spent a perfect morning together snuggling, laughing, and running around outside collecting rocks.
My heart is full. All is right again with the world.
In two days, we will fly home and be back together as a family. I am longing to see Dave and snuggle with him too. I miss him like crazy! It’s hard to believe that on Monday we will be celebrating our 7 year anniversary! I feel like these past 7 years have flown by. I truly am abundantly BLESSED.
The trouble is that I know that once we are back home, I will SO miss my family here in Florida. And, I know they will ache for the boys’ presence here. My parents and my younger sister have spent every minute with the boys over the past week and I know that they will all mourn as silence replaces the sweet sounds of laughter and the pitter patter of these precious little feet. These two illuminate joy.
It is such a struggle to have my heart in two places. When I’m here, I long for my home in Arkansas. And, when I’m there, I long to be here. I am trying to reconcile this in my life.
To enjoy this moment. This place.
My mind can wrap around the knowledge that I am incredibly blessed to have so many loved ones in various places. The problem becomes reconciling that knowledge with the fact that a piece of my heart resides in each of these places. I don’t know that I will ever be okay with being apart from those I love. I believe relationships and connections are what make this life so valuable. It is the people in our lives that make it worth living.
The truth is, I don’t think I’ll ever have this figured out but I am trying to live in the moment.
I’m done analyzing this for now…the boys just woke up from their nap. And, that means it’s time for me to sign off. We have memories to go make, folks!
I hope you all have a very blessed day!