Apparently, I’m a little slow to get it.
Last night, I softly heard that mysterious whisper of the Holy Spirit remind me of a lesson that I had already been taught. He brought these words to mind.
In fact, I could write that post from a cold March morning once more, word for word…
“It’s snowing outside. Big, gorgeous white snowflakes {this is the first time in Arkansas history that it has snowed in May}.
So unexpected after the warm weekend we just had. Hard to believe we were out working in our garden playing in the splash park four days ago {yep, exactly FOUR days ago just like last time}…
As I sit by the warmth of the fire and watch the flakes fall silently to the ground, I’m reminded of the magnificent words God spoke to Job {chapter 38} in order to draw his eyes away from his present suffering and up to the grandeur of God. God demonstrates that His wisdom and power are far beyond a human being’s comprehension.
4“Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation?
Tell me, if you understand.
18Have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth?
Tell me, if you know all this.
22“Have you entered the storehouses of the snow
22“Have you entered the storehouses of the snow
Who gives birth to the frost from the heavens
30when the waters become hard as stone,
when the surface of the deep is frozen?
33Do you know the laws of the heavens?
Can you set up God’s dominion over the earth?
And, here I am. Questioning how big God is. Questioning why He is allowing such suffering. Questioning why our road to our daughter has been so long and full of heartache.
And, I’m reminded that the very same God who keeps a storehouse of snow and blankets the earth with it’s majestic beauty is the very same God who holds our daughter close.”
That March morning, I woke up and prayed that I would get an update from a friend who was in the DRC at the time who had planned to visit our daughter. I heard from her that morning and received beautiful new photos of our daughter.
This morning, I prayed that God would provide some encouragement from the two friends who are in country right now. I just heard from one and she gave me very encouraging news. I hope to have good news to share on Monday!
And, my other friend is planning to visit S today. Oh, I am praying for her to just shower our girlie with love and light and hope. And, I’m so excited to see new photos of our precious one soon. I can’t wait to see how she is growing and changing. I absolutely hate missing out on her days and all of the little changes that are occurring in her life. I cling to photos of her, memorize the details, and wait expectantly for more.
On top of all of that, God has provided for us in amazing ways. He has used this fundraiser to minister to our hearts. To remind us that there are so many people praying for and loving S alongside us. What a blessing this has been to our family. We are overcome with gratitude. We are in awe of how BIG this week has been. BIG in love. BIG in provision. BIG in hope.
From the bottom of our hearts, thank you. Thank you for sharing and praying and giving. We are BLESSED.
Jenny – this is so good. Love you and we are praying!
beautifully said Jenny…I journaled months ago something similar and I feel like I'm beginning to grasp a tiny glimpse of what it's like for our Father to wait and pursue His children into adoption in His family. Praying for you!
Oh my goodness – snow in May! (There is a reason God has me living in California…and that four letter word s-n-o-w I'm sure is at the top of the list! Ha!)
SO glad you get a friend visiting your girlie today! Yay! I know your heart longs to be the one able to be there with her, but since you can't be yet, I'm so thrilled a friend is there in your stead loving on her and praying over her and telling her about how much her family loves her and can't wait to get to be with her!
Praying, praying, praying!