Blessings and Raindrops

seeking joy in the midst of the ordinary

the scope of my current sightline.

Sitting on the floor of my darkened closet. Door closed. Weeping. Unable to form the words.

Through the sobs… faint whispers.

“…please Jesus…please…”

The words won’t come.

The only prayer that bubbles up to the surface…

“just…help me. Help me.”

“…help me to get off of this floor…just help me to stand up.”

I can’t move.

I can’t move forward. The world is spinning with grief and confusion and sorrow.

He answers.

Dave, my kind, gentle, rock-solid-faith husband, finds me. He doesn’t say anything. He simply offers his hand. I place my hand in his and am pulled to my feet.

My Jesus hears me. He sees me. He knows that I need someone – this man – whom I trust to hold me near and not ask me to explain my sorrow. The words won’t come. The tears flow … and, gently, silently, the little closet is transformed into Holy ground. We stand together. United by our Father’s love for us, for our children, for our daughter. We stand firm in Him. Holding tightly to one another. Knowing that God is near.

In the light of dawn, the sorrow makes way for truth.

I read these words, I cling to these words…

“Being transcendent means HE gets to decide how His “beyondness” fleshes itself out in our lives. And that should be more than okay for us — because His purposes and plans, as well as His love and grace, are so far outside the limits of where our puny minds can go, we’re actually a whole lot better off just leaving the “how and when” details entirely in His hands. In fact, when we arrogantly place demands on God with our requests, we are actually doing ourselves a disservice. To limit His work to the range of our mind’s capacity to plan and comprehend is to limit our own experience of the extravagant capacity of God’s miracle-working potential, which spans all the way to eternity and back.
 
If we knew everything He was up to, we couldn’t bear the weight of it.”
 
“But I do know that when you and I approach God for help, filled with our cares and distresses, our prayers are not confined to this calendar date, to this particular month and year. What may seem to be His silence and avoidance from where you sit today is already reverberating in future places. If not right here, if not right now, you can be sure His ability is taking visible, tangible shape somewhere, even if it is beyond the scope of your current sightline.”
{Priscilla Shirer; God is Able}
 
My prayer tonight is that His extravagant, miracle-working ability is taking place just beyond the scope of my current sightline. I will continue to wait in expectant hope. 

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  2. Love Being A Nonny says

    And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. Luke 2:8-9 (NIV)

    "God saw those shepherds right where they were that night. He noticed their work; He noticed them. And He had a message of hope they desperately needed to hear. The message to the shepherds tells us God does see our hard work and long nights. And He doesn’t sleep. He doesn’t prefer those in authority. He doesn’t leave us alone. And He has a message of hope for each of us.

    I see you, rocking your crying baby at 2 a.m., doubting you’ll ever sleep again.

    I see you, up late studying while the rest of your classmates have fun.

    I see you, pacing the floor wondering when your teen will get home.

    I see you, working an extra shift to help pay the bills.

    I see you, sleeping on the couch fearing your marriage can’t be repaired.

    I see you, sitting with a friend who received the worst news of her life that day.

    To you, the news of the angels to the shepherds is yours as well.

    Behold … pacing mother, hardworking student, worrying wife … to you is given “good news that will cause great joy for all the people.” (Luke 2:10 NIV)

    To you … anxious sister, exhausted mommy, steadfast friend … “a Savior has been born … he is the Messiah, the Lord.” (Luke 2:11 NIV)

    It was no mistake God sent His angels to the dark fields and to the humble shepherds that night. He sent a message of good news to those who desperately needed to hear it.

    Today, in your place of darkness, isolation, weariness … God sees you and sends the same message: A Savior has been born for YOU."

    Read yesterday in Proverbs 31 Ministry. Thought of you tonight and wanted to share.